I want to believe you…

He doesn’t care, this prayer is not important to Him It’s never a punishment when a prayer is delayed….

Could it be that He is in the process of breeding a stronger faith in you? The faith that says, “even tho I don’t see, I trust.” Whatever faith that you need to get through this is going to be the type of faith you are going to need for years to come.

::My Lazurus:: Lord, you didn’t come in two days like I had hoped. Instead, you waited several days and now the thing I wanted you to fix is…


…dead (beyond repair)

Why has this trial come my way? Is this the atonement for my sins ? What are you teaching me through this Lord? Are you building up in me Lord, the kind of trust that says….”I am disheartened Lord, you didn’t come….. when I needed you.”



“I still know Who to pray to, I still know Who to talk to, I still know Who to trust, I still know Who to invite into my impossibility”

Behold, Yahweh’s hand is not shortened, that it can’t save; neither his ear heavy, that it can’t hear ___ Isaiah 59:1Ah Lord GOD! Behold, You have made the heavens and the earth by Your great power and by Your outstretched arm! Nothing is too difficult for You ___ Jeremiah 32:17

“If you (just) believe, you might see the Glory_of _God. Abandon yourself with trust in the One who is trustworthy”


But I don’t have the faith,I am faithless

“He remains faithful…”

When facing a roadblock, I like and invite the invasions of God. I like the supernatural interventions of God and it doesn’t matter to me if it’s the healing of a relationship, establishment of promises, if it’s a financial provision or the fruit of whats to come. Praise God that He has a heart that can handle and still love me when I say to Him….

“I am disappointed that it didn’t happen when I wanted it to, but its better that its in Your hands. Your love is better, Your time is better, Your works are better, [You, are better.]”

Did you stand me up? “He’s gonna come through. I just know it.” He’s not coming

How much sweeter will it be when you show up/ When you arrive on the scene/ When you step into the situation/

But you are gonna come through and when You silence the nay-sayers, I won’t have to lock eyes with pity. My heart won’t wander/wonder … I’ll proudly boast with tears in my eyes that….

“You came, I knew that you would come”

till then, I’ll proudly hope with tears in my eyes…

But why did this die? How is this death for anyones benefit?

when does your resurrection power come into play?

“Only for the greater good, only for the greater glory”


is this death the seed that needs to grow in the ground in order to germinate into something more beautiful then what I have? Is this the beauty from ashes ? Either way when you show up you always bring something better. Its the beautiful exchange, for my hope….you give me riches, in the form of testimonies, legacies and re solidified bond of faith. I love this journey of learning how faithful you really are. However faithful you are, you are even more faithful. Even more dependable, reliable, intentional. It became evident in this difficult situation, in this problem, in this opportunity, in this promise.

If you want this. You have to strive for this. Prove to God how much you want this, then He will come through. You aren’t praying hard enough. Faith and answered prayer comes through works.

“Rest”. Selah

I got a little distracted, I got caught up in whatever it might be that I believed that isn’t consistent with who He is.

“I need only to be still, and wait”

Why do I have to wait? But,

I still would of believed if You had came sooner…

The miracle wouldn’t of been AS great.

Where I am taking you is a deeper level of confidence

believe in Me, my nature, my word, my promise

SO will you, or won’t youI want to believe you….”

Though the fig tree does not bud and there is no fruit on the vines, though the olive crop fails and the fields produce no food, though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will triumph in Yahweh; I will rejoice in the God of my salvation! Habakkuk 3:17-18

“There is more glory in you trusting the process. If I always told you how things where going to work out, your faith would atrophy because you wouldn’t use it. You wouldn’t pray the same, and I would barely see your face. I know there are waves, I know you feel the boat rocking, but lock eyes with me. Where I am bringing you to is deeper than a skin to skin intimacy.”


“Rest and wait, come away with me, I am just as sad as you are about this death. Come with me, stay with me and watch when Lazarus, comes forth!”


Even if….Praise Be

•Three colors, three voices•

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